This Season of Life

“This season of life is hard,” I texted my husband as I looked at the dirty dishes piling up in the kitchen sink, a load of dirty baby clothes on the floor, and a table next to me filling up with used tissues and throat lozenge wrappers.

“Agreed. We have a messy house, we are both sick, Nolan is sick, sleeping is more valuable than gold, you and I don’t really get to spend any time together...”

He hit the nail on the head.

“Balancing work, family time, taking care of a house, finding time for friends, and still getting sleep seems impossible.”

In the past few days I’ve reached out to a few of you to let you know - I’m struggling.

I’m struggling as a working mom, trying to convince myself it’s ok that Nolan spends 9+ hours everyday at daycare.

I’m struggling as a wife, who hasn’t gone out on a “date” with her husband since February.

I’m struggling as a friend who has to cancel plans last minute because either my son is sick or I’m too exhausted to entertain the thought of socializing.

I’m struggling as a homeowner who hasn’t cleaned a bathroom in weeks or cooked a meal in months.

I know one day I will look back at this period of my life and miss the chaos, but right now everything feels very challenging and quite honestly, I’m starting to feel defeated.

I share this not for pity or to complain, but to voice how difficult this period of life is so one day I can look back and be proud that I got through it.